I have seen a few post on how we handle Stress.
I have see a few post about Abuse.
So I need to share some of My story. Just how is a kid suppose to handle stress.
I was the kid who all ways got Bullied. The kid who sat alone on the play ground. The Boy who cried . The school even called me Emotionally Impaired. Why because I showed Emotions.
Don't ask why but I could never tell any one about the abuse because I was afraid of getting more. They were belt beatings from my Dad. I was between the ages of 9 and 12. I would wear long pants in the summer to hide the welts on my legs. I would not get dressed for gym class for the same reason.
The friends I did make were always younger than me.
I was a scared kid that had a big secret I didn't want anyone to know. I just wanted to go back to a time were I was safe, with out getting hurt. At night I would pretend to my self that I was a baby again and that made me feel safe. That is when my bed wetting started. Even got a few beatings over that.
For some reason that scared kid is still with me. Only now I think we are protecting each other. The beatings are long ago history, things of the long forgotten past. But that scared little kid still takes me a safe and secure place when I need to go there. I can't explain why but seems there was a part of me that never grew up.
We each have our own ways of dealing with stress and hurts.