Hi all! I'm bigpa, a 30+ years old male.
I'm single, rather happy, and a hardcore geek.
Since almost two years ago I live alone, and after moving I spent a couple of months wanting to buy diapers but I hadn't the courage to do it. At last, I did it. And it was fascinating.
I'm a diaper lover since around my 12 years old, when my little sister was born. I'm unable to recall if I saw diapers (in any form) before she was born, but the thing is that when I saw her diapers for the first time, I felt weird. I... felt like using one of that 'things'. Even I tried to put myself one of her diapers when she was a little older, but my body was already too big.
I kept that feeling to myself.
At some time in high school a friend of mine had internet access so with a huge embarrasment I asked him to let me search ABDL pics (to give you a clue, I used 1.44MB diskettes which hold in turn around 12/14 files :P). He always was very polite so that helped me a lot, but was in that moment when I realized I was a diaper lover: Seeing normally dressed people wearing diapers caused a sort of electricity that baby-dressed people just didn't.
Of course, I never again tried to use diapers (what if my parents had discovered me!?), but I couldn't help to feel something awkard, to feel nervous near a diaper bag, regardless its brand or its size.
It wasn't but until I was an adult that I confessed my fetish to my best friend, who just laughed (that didn't help a lot), but at least everything stopped there. No more news until I moved to my own place.
So years have passed and I'm here... wearing a Plenitud Protect (I think it's a rebrand of Depends)... and still without understand why.
I know, I know... Plenitud Protect isn't the best brand by far (I'm already disappointed by it), but these are the best diapers I can get by now. I'll talk about that in another thread later.
To sum up, why is it happening to me? Don't take me wrong, I like it, i really like it, but somehow I can't explain how or why I get to this situation, and to get things worse, I just can't handle to go into the diaper! (well, I'm starting to feel nervous saying this :p). I'm like inhibited to pee, and just sit to wait... and wait... and wait.. Until it is impossible to hold it anymore. Why? Why I still do this?
So, how did I get here? :P
Hugs and thanks in advance!
PS: English isn't my native language, so I'll most likely have made some grammar errors horrors. I'm trying to do my best.