I thought I would share my thoughts with you guys,
Being a DL or AB is confusing at times this community has helped me a lot and many others in accepting are weird fetish and how to integrate it into our lives in a healthy way
This fetish means different things for a lot of people and helps In a lot of ways with their everyday lives like a stress helper,
I personally have issues with this fetish I’ve tried hard to understand what this fetish is for me and I know it’s a stress helper because whenever I’m stressed the fetish will come into play but once I’m ok after a week or two I’m back to normal life and I guess that’s the whole binge and purge cycle and even though I have accepted this fetish in a way I can’t help to feel it to be a burden or a hindrance it seems like it takes hold of me like a spell and makes me do things I wouldn’t normally do almost like it’s a whole other part of me I’m happy and at the time I feel like everything is a good idea like wetting the bed and wearing diapers and wetting them and telling myself that this time I will become a real life bedwetter the thought of wetting the bed and being a kid that dose so is so arousing its crazy as I said it’s like a spell and then two weeks go past and its over the idea of becoming a bedwetter go’s the thought of wearing diapers go and im left there thinking wtf the spell has broken and I guess that’s the binge and purge cycle but is it healthy
I mean I feel sometimes like I need to see someone about this just to talk and get it sorted in my head I mean it’s hard for me because I’m very keep my feeling to myself kind of guy and the idea of therapy is like I’m weak or something, I guess some people cope with this better than others I worry about my future with this fetish and of what people will think if I ever did share this secret with them.
Just talking to people that have been through the same things as me helps a lot I have never met a real life AB/DL so it’s hard to not feel alone but I know I’m not because of this great community would be great to hear how you cope with this and if any of you went to therapy to sort it out in your head or you are thinking of doing so just wish I had a friend in real life that was the same as me