MATURE CONTENT!!!! & a looooong post
1) So first things first, what I don't want is a string of replies that goes
"no you cant quit"
"no its impossible ABDL is with u forever"
If youre going to say something like that then GO AWAY!!!!
Unconstructive criticism that loops in a self-perpetuating cycle, is NOT USEFULL!!!!
Especially when I had to go through all the crap that ABDLers throw at me. Although I accept that you may have no intention of curing ABDLism, the fact that I'm trying to does not warrant the constant wailing insistence that I get.
2) Anyway as you may/may not know I'm an ADISC resident who would rather not have DLism. That's not to say that I hate it, I just don't want it.
So lately to "cure" it, I've been watching normal porn... I know it sounds weird, but I used to masturbate in a diaper (before gradually "evolving" to watching diaper porn, and now Im watching normal porn (as in guy, girl, sausage, hole.. -.-)]
Anywayyyz the last time I wore a diaper must have been a month ago. Though that may seem normal, I have this whole stash right in my room and I've kind of killed the urge to use any lately.
This power struggle in my head is going..
"oh i wanna wear one"
"no i dont"
and it ends with me not being bothered to. It's weird as hell! but I think I may be not liking diapers anymore [well at least not as much as i used to]
Obviously the dissenters would say it's a really really long binge purge cycle. But I beg beg beg to differ.
I think I may be on the verge of becoming a normal person [in the heterosexual sexual sense]
I think I've reduced my liking for diapers. (the risk that I'm taking which I'm aware of is that this is a binge purge cycle =[ sad face ). However though I may still have a tinge of DLism in me, I think it is definitely less.
The extent of this effect depends...
Will I be able to forever erase my DLism?
Only time will tell..
Jack off to normal porn; if you have an urge to jack in a diaper, vs normal porn then.. remember "small steps" ..
It's the everyday choices that gradually evolve into habits. I mean it took me the last year [effort wise] to reduce DLism; and I still obviously have an inkling towards diapers...
So if you've reached this point --> . <-- you've read my supa long post!
Thank you; and here's .... & Tell me what your thoughts are!