This post is going to sound very weird but I feel I could use some advice.
I am a dl but I am also incontinent. I don't mind the incontinence because I actually love the feeling of a wet diaper. Now normally I hate cute diapers I just look for diapers that provide good protection except for the last 2 week's I've found myself thinking to myself "I really wanna try a diaper that looks.... Cute... Like the bambino classico or something" obviously I haven't ordered anything because sadly 35 dollars a bag seems very expensive especially after you Pay shipping but that's not the issue.
problem is I feel like I shouldn't do it. Not saying anything bad about people who like cute diapers that are babyish, I just also thought it's not my thing and even Now every time I find my hand over that order button I end up closing the page thinking "no this isn't you don't waste the money you won't like it."
I don't know what to do. My living situation doesn't stop me, I live away from Mom and Dad with my fiance who thankfully doesn't care about the diapers, I have a job and a steady flow of income (though I hate wasting money). Nothing to stop me except myself. Should I just say screw it and do it or follow my gut and don't? Anyone else experienced this?