I have been working on mentally retraining myself to just go in the diaper and not think about it. I have found that at first it was really difficult. The only way I could pee as to be standing and alone. Over time this changed to where I could pee talking to people while in my diaper. Finally I was able to pee sitting at my desk or in the car but only with great difficulty or with a really full bladder (which I did find very uncomfortable).
Now things are starting to change mentally for me. I put my diaper and plastic pants on and find that even if I have gone to the bathroom and peed before putting on the diaper, that as soon as it is on I start leaking. I also have found that very often I will be sitting at my desk or in the car driving to work and not even realize I am leaking or that the pee has started flowing out in a slight dribble. I do find also that now all I have to do is just relax my stomach muscles and relax the muscles below my belly button and sure enough I will start leaking.
I think that what has happen over time is instead of trying to make it happen that I now just don't worry about it. The results have been this steady leaking, or slight dribble. Yes I do still find that if I go outside and am talking to people that before I know it I will be producing quite a stream of pee in my diapers.
Has anyone else found that by not thinking or trying to go in there diaper that they also have reached the point of peeing happening and them not really noticing that it had started? I do wonder if this continues will it happen that at some point I will just be wearing panties and will find I am leaking or have a steady dribble and this result in me acutally peeing my pants in public while not wearing a diaper?