I wanted to post an update on how things are going. It has been a long road in truely learning to relax and enjoy peeing in a diaper anywhere. I have posted before and lots know I do enjoy wearing and peeing in public. I have been working on really enjoying the feeling of the pee just flowing out. The biggest thing that has helped is not thinking about it all the time.
What I have found is if I put on the diaper and then just wait I well begin to feel the bladder getting full. Then I start to feel like spasums as my body wants to go but my mind is screaming hold it. I found if I just wait and relax, let the spasums happen, and soon I will feel the urine just start to start leaking out - not a flow but more like a dribble. Then I find once I start to enjoy that feeling the mind finally gives up and I will just start peeing. I do find that the first part of the flow is a good one but not a flooding. Then the flow seems to tapper off and stop and start again.
This morning I managed to pee while driving to Lowes and while I walked around and picked up a few things. Then when I got back in the car the spasums happen again and the flow continued. Once I got back to work I acutally had a good flow happen while I was walking into the building.
I do find that it is a matter of retaining but it is also so important to just relax and let it happen on its on.
Oh I do so love that feeling of the pee as it starts to dribble and then flow out of me into the diaper.