I did read the cheat-sheet to writing a great introduction, but it just made me more afraid to mess up when writing it so I will just try to tell you a little bit about myself in the best way that I can.
My history with diapers began when I was a small child between the ages of 3-5, having to stay hospital over extended periods of time, being subjected to painful procedures, surgery etc.
This whole experience traumatized me greatly. Without going into the details of it all, during this time I found that my diapers were the only thing that felt familiar, safe, and comforting.
As far as I can remember I was always fascinated about diapers, and what they were used for, but about age 12 I discovered that I wanted to try diapers. I remember shoplifting a package of Pampers Phases Junior Size from the local grocery store. This is something I am ashamed of having done even to this day, but I was just so afraid of being found out that at the time it seemed the better option.
Later I found out that I had a little girl inside of me and would buy diapers for girls rather than boys when those were available. Found out that I liked pacifiers, cute and girlish things. Had my fair share of binge-purge cycles over the years, taking a lot of time to come to a point where I accepted myself.
Iíve been coming to this site every now and then, reading some of the tutorials and discussions that I found on here, but never really thought of taking the step of signing up for an account until just a little while ago. My main reason for wanting to join this community is because lately some really sad things has happened in my life, where right now I feel somewhat lost and confused, and would need some kind and gentle support. Having said that Iím hoping that Iíll be able to help others as well.
The diaper/little girl part of me is a pretty big part of me, but itís also a part of me that I do not want to show off to people. Itís something very private that I try to keep to myself as much as I can as itís not something that is easily talked about openly.
Also since sometime in 2012 I found myself becoming a Brony, though at first I felt like that was separate from me being into diapers and being a little girl inside. Now Iím not entirely sure how I feel about it anymore, but itís like enjoying MLP:FiM is something I do regardless of if I see it from my ďadult sideĒ or my ďchildish sideĒ. I just love it, and its positive message - regardless.
Iíve noticed that there seems to be a number of Bronies on this forum and Iím hoping that maybe Iíll get to know some of them at some point.
Aside from diapers Iíve always been into computers ever since I got my first computer at age 6. Iíve had Commodore VIC-20, C64, Amiga 500, and numerous PC Compatibles over the years. Also just a general tech geek, enjoying console gaming and having a decent collection of those too. PSX, Playstation2, Gamecube, Dreamcast, Nintendo handhelds, XBOX360, and Playstation 3.
I mostly enjoy playing older games like the Sierra On-Line adventure games and Lucasart games that I grew up with, Doom and Wolfenstein 3D. Iím just generally into retro gaming a lot more than the modern games. I also have a love for aviation, anything that has to do with flyingÖ so I also mess around with Flight Simulator X.
Iím also into music. I enjoy playing the piano/keyboard/synthesizer which is something I started doing at an early age. Never did learn musical notation despite taking piano lessons in school, but playing by ear, and enjoying it very much. I also sing, used to sing in the school choir back when, and also used to be a member of a Gospel Choir, but now I just sing and record stuff for fun and as a creative outlet.
I also enjoy listening to a wide range of music from pop and rock to country music, smooth jazz, and fusion, all the way to J-Pop, Bitpop and Dubstep and everything in between, though I have to admit to not being a big fan of classical music.
Oh gosh! This came to be such a long introductionÖ If thereís something youíre still wondering about, please let me know. I hope that you will all treat me kindly here on the forum.