Ok, so my wife and I decided that I would take a break from wearing in the month of May. It's not big deal, except I'm haven't really gone a month without wearing since the first "Christian" counselor claimed that wearing diapers is like cross dressing. (no offense meant, if that's your deal.) But whatever, the time I take a break from it is no big deal...except the last couple of days, I start to obsess more and more, (I was thinking I would like to wear every day next week.) I'm not sure the time frame matters, be it 60 days, or 90 days, I'm sure that as I near the end of it, I'm going to fixate of my diaper fetish more and more. (I'm probably a vanilla AB in denial, but labels are labels. But then life worked put that I have my day off, wife at work, and it's the 31st. So I ask myself, do dates matter? I'm sure they do, but even though I'm going to wait until the 2nd to pick back up. I'm making great strides in convincing myself that I'm too ****ed up to have a family. Also, I am wondering if I would be willing to cut off my left hand if that would make me normal. (ok, I won't do that. maybe some fingers.) Anyway, it's super clear to me that the emotional energy that I spent thinking about this, and wondering why I'n this way, is not going to be worth it. It would have been better to just short my break a day or two, and not have the extra mental baggage. But YMMV, Have a good weekend everyone.