Who am I, you ask. I'm currently spending most of my time on a personal programming project. If I succeed, I might earn a buck or two. If I fail, I will still have a very cool piece to put on my portfolio as well as gained valuable experience. Before this, I was a student. I did two Bachelors, both of them in the field of computer science. While I succeeded for the majority of the courses in the first one, I didn't finish it. The second one, I graduated cum laude. During my second Bachelor, I studied abroad for half a year. I'm not that social but I'm not shy either.
I'm still living with my parents and I'm grateful for what they have given me. Moving out, at least for now, isn't an option. First, I need a steady income. Second, I need a more compelling reason besides privacy to move out, say a girlfriend or living closer to work.
What interests me is software development, particularly software architecture. How will the different parts work? How will these parts work together? Games are interesting pieces of software in this regard. Lately, I'm also getting more interested in learning new programming paradigms. I don't mean to say I'm not interested in anything else. An engaging speaker on almost any subject is sure to get my attention.
I enjoy watching movies, particularly science fiction, thriller or action movies. If they were made between the late 70's and the early 90's, even better! I also like to listen to music, mostly metal and electronic sub-genres. Lastly, I like to play games. I really like games in which you can build something. Take Minecraft with all those technical mods. Just like Lego, as long as you can think of something to build, the game never gets boring.
At the age of six or seven, I wanted to be back in diapers. It's not that I don't want to be an adult. I just wish that at times, I could turn back the clock to when I was only three or four. I don't understand why I want to wear diapers and footed pjs. I don't understand why I want to be tucked in with my favourite plushee and suck my thumb or paci. Why does this make me feel so safe, so at ease?
Don't think I didn't fight this desire. Sometimes, I could get it out of my head for months but then, without provocation, it came back. The more I resisted it, the stronger it became. Eventually, I always gave in. Afterwards, I felt cheated, angry, stupid, disgusted, not worth anything. Most of the time I destroyed and threw away anything that reminded me of what I did. Not too long before I discovered ADISC I agreed with myself that I had to stop doing this. I agreed I could indulge from time to time. Now a year and a half later I still feel somewhat disgusted but my mind is more at peace.
When I was nineteen, I had the crazy idea to search the internet to see if other people existed that shared my desire. What I found..., let's just say I ran for the hills and never looked back. A year ago I found this site by searching for where to buy footed pjs. It looked nothing like those sites of the past. I doubted for a long time but two nights ago I made an account. I hope to meet new people, maybe even make new friends.
I've never had the courage to share this with anybody, not in real life, not on the internet. If you're still here, thank you for reading. I hope that most of what I wrote is somewhat cohesive. English isn't my first language and I don't find it particularly easy to talk about myself.