Well in the past 2 years many things have happened to me that have been huge changes in my life. 1 of the big one's is my mom buying a farm and moving. Which the result was me living on my own paying bills at age 16 and through 17. I was so, so, alone in that place. It was living hell, sometimes I went weeks without seeing, or communicating with anybody except over the phone at some points. I was desperately in need of attention. I feel like I'm a different person because of all those days and night's spent wishing I still had my mom, and, wishing I wasn't feeling like I wanted to kill myself.
Then weeks after I move out of the apartment, and into a much nicer place that my grandma owns *still living by myself though so it wasn't much better* my grandfather dies. This really really got to me, and I'm still depressed about it. He was more of a father to me than my own dad.
Now my boyfriend has taken multiple college courses on psychology, and has gone through units in those classes that cover regression. He told me a couple weeks ago that he has been noticing me regressing randomly, and talking to him in my "little kid" voice every now and then. He thinks its really cute, but I cant control it at all. It literally happens multiple times a day. I also get these sudden uncontrollable urges to just drop what I'm doing, and go regress no matter what. We also have chalked up the recent return of my bed wetting to regression as well.
He thinks that I'm mentally and possibly physically, regressing, its slow, but definite. He even thinks that in the next couple years (2+) I'm just going to slowly continue regressing until my minds at the age it want's to be. I didn't really believe him at first, but then he showed me research on it, and it is indeed very possible for this to occur. He even says that when I do fully regress he would still be my BF, and no matter what he will take care of me.
It just scares me that I'm starting to be unable to control when I regress. I can still fully regress at will, but now it's just happening randomly. I know for me this isn't just a fetish, this is a huge, huge part of me, and my life, but I'm just really wondering whats going on, and am seeking therapy to try to understand it more.
If anyone has anything they want to say, advice, comment, etc, feel free to do so it would be much appreciated to hear others opinions on this. Also I would like to know if anyone thinks this may be happening due to all the major events that have occurred.