So I'll start by saying this thread might need to be moved, but since the restructuring, zero folks read the mature forum, because we're all mature, and I'd like some feedback. So, if this needs moved, please move it. Anywho,
So the wife left to visit back home (she's back now) and I was soooo stoked to be able to wear and use and whatever while she was gone. The first night was great! The second night was OK! The third...never happened. No padding for 2 weeks after that. Now, it should be mentioned, my wife has become an active (sexual) participant in my little...thing. And, I have kiddos I needed to care for without a partner.
After those few nights, I had zero desire for diapers. It sucked! I waited for 6 months for that time alone (albeit with kiddos)!
Then, on Tuesday, the wife came back. It was great! I had waited for her return for weeks! Finally, no stress about...not wearing diapers.
Then, after we welcomed her home (in an adult fashion), my diaper desires returned, in full force. After making woopie, I padded up. Quickly.
The question: I'm DL 90% I'd assume. Are my diaper issues when she's gone related to sex drive? I don't want anyone except her. So, when she was gone, my drive evaporated. When she came back, I had "access" so I thought the diaper days were in the process of becoming "behind me". But it seems that sexual access was rather a trigger into my DLism.
Any thoughts? In a way, this seems a little...backwards.