Well as the title says, I'm thinking of telling my family about my incon issues...
My incontinence first appeared when I was 15. My mother said I was very quick and easy to potty-train, and would rarely have a bed wetting incident; it never progressed past the age of 4 which sounds normal enough.
Eleven years later, when I was 15 in high school, I started having issues controlling myself. I wet the bed a number of times, and could feel myself letting out small streams of pee into my pants at school. Luckily we had uniform and I wore black pants during this time. I also remember sitting at the computer and full-on wetting myself and the chair. I was distraught and did everything I could to clean the chair. I told my dad I spilled juice or something.
Strangely, these bouts would come and go. Because I was also ABDL, I decided to try some diapers and go that route. I never told anyone about it and kept it to myself. It lasted for only a couple months. And it's been like that since then... On and off, and on and off, and on... Quite frustrating.
Last year, I slept on my friend's couch and had a wetting accident during the night. I was SO embarrassed, but she was sympathetic and we threw the couch out later that day (it was a god-awful pink and purple colour anyway).
Well, in the past couple months it started up again. But up until today, I believe it's getting worse. I combat it with doubling up at night with plastic pants, and wearing a light cloth-backed diaper during the day. I've been 24/7 for well over a month now pretty much. It's getting worse because, though I still wet day and night, I'll have a messy accident during the night once every 2 weeks average.
I'm just a little stressed because I'm finding it very hard to change my diaper in my room when there are other people in the house. I change an average of 3-5 times a day, and I've had one-too-many close calls! I also have to sneak around my family to get packs of pads to my room, hiding them all the time. Not to mention the times I have #2 at night and hiding the smell (been using nag champra lol), and finding the opportune moment to start the long change. Not to mention I fear they'll hear the crinkle (cloth-backed still make a noise). The list will go on.
So what do you guys say? Should I go for gold and hope for silver?
How should I bring it up? How do I brace myself for a downfall? I just want relief.
I also have reason to believe they already slightly know. My father saw my internet history when I was like 13 y/o and he passively mentioned the ABDL sites (I was young and stupid), so I'm also worried they won't believe me when I approach them about this because they'll think it's just some ploy.
Input would be appreciated!