So heres whats going on right now. Last week I told my gf about my "secret" (that im abdl). She seemed to understand everything and wasnt bothered by it. However she wasnt completely supportive of it. For example, she said that she doesnt want me to do my "baby stuff" and involve her in it, meaning i cant like touch her or snuggle up on her. For me I can already tell this is gonna suck. I want to indulge my abdl life and its drawing me into it so bad but I also dont want to upset my girlfriend and make her weird or anything. We love each other very very much and we want to marry each other but I dont know how this is going to work out if at all. I want her to baby me at least a little bit but im pretty sure shes kinda made it clear its not gonna happen. She says she wants me to feel like her "man". I can understand where shes coming from and I do provide for her and am really an amazing boyfriend.
Perhaps im just taking things too fast? A few days after I told her all I bought was a pacifier. I want to buy some diapers but I havent even told her I want to do that yet because im just afraid that she will get upset or something. The reason why I dont think she likes the idea of me acting like a baby is because I asked her if she ever thinks about my baby side. she said no which kinda bothered me. After I told her she didnt even ask me questions or wanted to make me happy I guess by just going along with my role playing. She never asked if she can get involved or was even curious to maybe try it out. The reason why im sad is because I want her to be my "mommy" and all but the vibe she gives off makes me uncomfortable to even be a baby around her. Which so far has really only been sucking on a pacifier. I dont know how to move forward or what to do since I know she doesnt really want anything to do with it even though shes ok if I do it by myself. One of my options was to just continue doing my baby thing and have patience that it will get better and she may want to participate. Another thing I thought about was to go to a counseler together and maybe tell the counseler that I would feel better if my gf would participate and have the counseler tell her that without me in the room. Maybe she will then give it a shot. Im just scared that our relationship will end because of this and it really hasnt even started. We have been together for 2 years and have been living together for like 1. I dont think I told too late in the relationship because I told her im sorry it took so long for me to tell her but she was understanding and supportive in the mentoring way but not physically. I hope everyone can help me out here, im like on the edge, please give me some advice. Thank you.