Hello, i have a long history with this, how i grew up around diapers and my fetish for them. I am a DL not a AB/TB. Anyways when I( was around 3 i stopped wearing diapers and never had a bed wetting issue or anything that requested diapers. Then around 7 I started to get attracted to them. I was to scared to wear them so when i was at day care i would go to the bathroom and put them on my genitals other then wearing them. At 10 I started to get sexually attracted to them (erections). I started to sneak my little brothers diapers and put them on but they were to small as he was only 3. My parents are separated and its a little more difficult due to having a step mother and father.
When I was 12 i started looking around online and was wondering why I had this thing for diapers. Now as i was looking it up one time my mother walked into the room. I tried to quickly hide what i was looking at but she knew something was up. She asked me what i was looking at and then i showed her and tried to explain and was balling my eyes out crying.So she sympathized for me, said its okay and all this other crap. Then that weekend i went to my dads and told my dad about my issue. he said it was alright you can do what ever you want in your room. No wearing them in the house or anything. (I agreed because I had 2 infant step-brothers and no influence was needed from me.) Anyways it is still really okward and i feel weird doing it ESPECIALLY with a step-mother.
My mother on the other hand. We had a discussion that night. She Said she would NOT allow them in the house or me wearing them PERIOD! (I still do no matter what) Main issue with this is she BLATANTLY said "I WOULD RATHER YOU BE GAY!" I am straight by the way.
After the discussions i had with my dad and mother they came to the conclusion that i only wantes attention! This made me EXTREMLY angry. My mother comes home after work and is up for 3 hours before she goes to bed. In those 3 hours all she does is yell at me. Reason for moving to my dads is due to, i dont like my step mom (i dont know if she knows about my DL), second at my moms i have my animals that i spend most of my time around and are really attached too,. Finaly my gandmother lives with my mom in a suite downstairs and i love my grandmother. At my dads
Tge only thing i would go for is for my brothers but they cause to much trouble abd my dad is always occupied.
So I dont know what to do.
1. keep hiding it and feel insecure and scared.
2. let her find them and if she freaks just leave and go live with my dad or a relative that accepts it.
is there anyway to convince them more than i already did. Its my comfort zone i am relaxed, focused and just overall stress relief
Also im looking to talk with people local in Canada.
Thanks for the support and hope to talk with you soon!