Okay so first of all, I just wanted to kind of pat everyone here on the back for being so supportive and intelligent in replying to others. I have tried a few abdl sites, but way too many trolls made any real conversation possible. But I digress.....
I guess I just wanted to reach out to you all for some help. I am having an identity crisis, and I wonder if anything similar has happened to anyone else? Basically I am trying to ease into a comfortable abdl lifestyle that fits my little world. I want to know how other people ease into things so there is not a sudden shock... For example, I have not tried diapers yet.... I know, I know. I really think for me this is a hygiene issue and I had a job where I changed a lot of elderly people's diapers so I more so associate diapers with that experience than with my little one. When I think of diapers I automatically think of the old, dying, sick people I once cared for and this spoils any whimsical, imaginative play I could have wanted. For me, this is very sad, because I really feel that diapers would complete my abdl RP, but my adult brain just says no.
I do enjoy dressing little in my footie pajamas, hair in piggy tails, and curling up with my big teddy and a bottle (of water). I also like to call my boyfriend Daddy, but not in a sexual way. Just more so in a way like that he is taking care of me and my little needs and therefore it is a safe space.
I guess what I am asking is how I can enhance my little experience and how I can identify myself as abdl without the diaper aspect? Or maybe how I could work that in? I know that this is crucial for a lot of people but my experiences in work have "tainted" that so to speak. I want to ease into an abdl lifestyle and am open to becoming more comfortable with diapers and disassociating my work experiences.
I'm still new at this everyone! Please help me!