So it seems like a good time to do a self-assessment. A few years ago I was diagnosed with fatty liver, which is a condition that us fat people get when we have high triglycerides that build up in liver tissue. I haven't had issues with it for about four years, but I've been gaining weight recently so it's been flaring up. I have an appointment with the doc on Monday though I already know what the course of treatment will be- lose 20 pounds or so, and stop drinking until I'm going down.
So, similarly to considering the possibility that you're insane is a sign you aren't (I have no idea if that's true, but I hear it a lot), I'd like to consider the possibility I'm an alcoholic. I enjoy drinking. I like the taste of liquor. I like the feeling of being drunk. I like the emotions that being drunk brings me. Alcohol heightens my emotions. If I drink when I'm sad, I'll become despondent. If I drink when I'm happy, I'll be over the moon. For that reason, drinking is a purely fun-time activity for me.
I'm not sure if I can stop drinking any time I want. I don't drink too often. Sometimes I'll drink 2-3 times a week, but frequently I won't have a drink for 2-3 months just because I never have the urge to do so- the odd glass of wine when out to dinner aside. The only thing that makes me think I might be an alcoholic is that when I do get the urge to drink and for any reason can't, I get upset about it. That said, you can substitute in anything else I like doing for alcohol in this example and it remains true. If all of a sudden I decide it'd be awesome to order a pizza and I find out that my favorite place closed 10 minutes ago, I'm an unhappy camper. I don't think that I'm a pizzaholic. Of course, in neither case is this the end of the world. I'm pouty for a while and then go back to my regularly scheduled life.
I remember a comedian a few years back- I think Mitch Hedberg, RIP- who said that there's no good way to say that you're not an alcoholic, because saying you're not will make it sound like you are. The thought of not being able to drink for possibly a few months is one I don't like, but one I accept as necessary. I just feel rather unhappy about it and would like to get some input from the other people here.