As a part of my last binge I took the huge step, for me, of joining this group. I normally eshew any kind of digital footprint. With every binge come a purge and so I was off the site for a while. To my chagrin when I cycled back to diapers and logged back in again I was notified that my account got demoted to lurker. I hate posting in forums generally but especially about this private a topic. Anyway I m back in diapers and back on the sites.