Like many users here, in this situation I am seeking comfort and advice from the ADISC community in a non-DL way.
While I already take anti-depressants for my depression, I am finding it hard to cope with daily life. With the fact of my youth slowly fading away and a corrupt school system wasting my teenage and child years, it makes it very hard to look to the future in a positive, non-suicidal way. I do have a history of severe depression, at age 15 I almost committed suicide. I feel felt more depressed ever since I turned 20, kknowing my teenage years had eneded and I could not do anything to fulfill that ruined past.
What ways could people here suggest to me to feel like my future is not useless and my existence is not worthless? I have cried myself to sleep at night and the hope that I could be a successful muscian is what keeps me thinking I shouldnt end my life yet, as wel as not wanting to spend a eternity in hell.