Hi Everyone, I really could use some help. I have been dating my abdl boyfriend for over a year now, and have known about this part of his life for around 9 months... It's difficult to understand why I need help coming to terms with this part of his life now, even though i've known for a while but I need help and guidance and to understand what is going on. I love this man with all of my heart...he honestly has the most beautiful soul I've ever seen in a person. He loves me with all of his heart with no expectations, no conditions, just love....and I love him so much as well. This is the type of relationship that I knew would be forever, yet here I am after having a conversation this morning with him about how I'm not sure I will be able to handle waking up next to him in a wet diaper with a soother in his mouth every morning for the rest of my life. I HATE myself for feeling this way which is why I have tried to push these feelings away for the past 9 months and try to be supportive of him. I was shocked at first but told him it was ok, at first the knowledge of his fetish was enough, but I warmed upto it for him...i soon became accustomed to seeing him wear a diaper, use it, and cuddleup next to me in bed and fall asleep. I even participated a handful of times by wearing and on very few occasions I used one as well. It is normal for me still not to be ok with his abdl this far into our relationship or am I kidding myself that I will ever be okay with it? How long should it take before I am okay with this or do I have to let go of the love of my life because I'm too narrow minded to every be okay with abdl?