Please forgive my lapse in good manners, and allow me to introduce myself, albeit belatedly.
As one of those rarest of creatures, a lesbian-oriented biologically female adult baby, I have always felt a crippling aloneness even within the AB community that I am only just beginning to explore. From troubles finding a caretaker to relating to others to handling my own behavior with people in my grown-up life, I have struggled terribly, and even painfully at times, with the person I am and wish to be inside.
When I was a real life toddler, I simply never grew up. Even at 4 years old I was secreting baby diapers in my room and strapping myself into my toy doll's stroller or my old car seat. Even today within my circle of friends, who have NO idea about my AB persona, I am the one who needs to be babied, cared for and protected. The very instincts I inspire in others are to treat me like a child or baby, holding me when I slam my head, spanking me when I behave irresponsibly, and using punishment and reward to improve my behavior rather than just shaking off my childishness.
But I have never let anyone in to the secret that this childishness runs much deeper than just a greater need to be cared for than most adults. If I did, I am sure that what is now just people's instinctive responses to me would morph into disgust, and I would lose my innocence in their eyes. That is why a connection with the AB/DL community was something that I desperately needed, especially to stop leaning on the semi-support of my unknowing grown-up friends, risking losing them or developing unhealthy relationships.
For the first time I have decided to actually reach out to the AB/DL community, and thus far I have already felt a tremendous weight lifted from my shoulders! I know that not only am I different from the grown ups around me, I'm also different from the majority of ABs, but the support that I have already received in my short time here has shown me that I am absolutely not alone, and that there are so many ways for me to love myself and allow myself to live the way that I want, and not be alone!
I want to thank every member of the AB/DL community just for being a kindred spirit!