For me wearing diapers feels amazing and wetting them even better. But I have such a hard time accepting it and such guilt and shame everytime I wear. One person knows about it and that's my girlfriend. She lets me wear in front of her but lately I feel like it's a complete turn off for her and for me it turns me on more then anything. I don't know what to do I don't know if I should accept it or try to forget about it.