I have a girl and a friend. She and I are basically brother/sister twins. Alike and dislike in every way, mirror images of each other. When I go haywire she functions properly and vice versa.
She's a Mormon at BYU. I want to ask her so bad....but we don't have that type of relationship. I mean if there was a girl to do it she'd be one of four and probably the most likely. But it's highly unlikely.
I told her recently of my "problem." Tell her the truth, I wear pullups and like stuffed and binkies. She's cool, she understands me. She did thumb sucking until 8. I think she'd be a DL if she could be, but she doesn't know much about it minus my insecurity.
I've thought this out so many ways....I asked her to "babysit," me when she comes back. (This'll consist of swinging and playing at the park or something, a joke really but maybe I'll have my binky depending on population control)
I , whilest joking, said "I promise you don't have to change any diapers if you baby sit me." Than after that the idea occured to me, it's possible.
I think I just fucked up and asked her about how far she'd go for me. I said what would you do and what would you not do.....I didn't mean it like that...I told her I was interested in psychology, and I am. I want to see what types of people do what things for friends.
It's eating me away. She probably knows but probably wouldn't do it. Could affect the relationship or lack there of even.
Or maybe I can go visit one of you guys to experience the first and maybe only change of my life? I even thought about giving her a blind fold and rubber gloves if that's what it took.
I need someone to talk me out of this. She said BRB when I asked what was off limits and I don't think she's coming back.
I just want to experience it one time from someone important. I don't want to be stuck with this fetish forever, but I want to experience all of it before i grow up...................