A thread on asexuality(on another site) has made me realize something fundamental. if you find yourself totally not interested or scared even of having sex with a woman but you actually crave and are excited for the same with men. you are gay. not bi sexual and not straight and not asexual. im still trying to accept that. the fact i enjoy the companionship with woman but not sex again is a typical gay identifier. I have identified as straight pretty much my whole life except for a year when i identified both as a bisexual man and gay. that was the funnest year but I stopped because i missed the companionship of woman and I felt the immense feeling of loss. mostly due to the fact I want more kids and because society does a good job of ingraining the norman rockwell white picket fence and all american dinner table in our brains. you do feel like you will miss out. i know many gay men have kids and amazing families but at the same time many dont. so i must get beyond all these feelings before I will truly be happy. thank you OP!
so what are your thoughts on anything mentioned? why is it so hard to be straight your whole life or at least identify as straight and then have evidence that is strong and confirming that you are gay instead and be able to accept that? some thing else I thought about too is my daughter growing up. I dont want her to be teased growing up and we live in a society that still allows that to happen. Anything else this thread brings to mind please put it on the table.