I have recently been in and out of psychiatric hospitals and have been treated for major depression, panic disorder, and dissociative identity disorder. I am wondering if my interest in ABDL is part of what is causing me to completely dissociate into a two year old state, or a 6 month old state. When I say dissociate, I mean I have memory lapses between states. While an adult I am still an ABDL, and still partially IC, but it is just interesting that my two most prominent alters are little ones. Any thoughts on this?