I'm sorry to flood the site with another circumcision thread, but all I have checked have been closed.
Anyway, this eats at me anywhere from every day to atleast every week of my life for the last two years, since I began researching male circumcision: infantile or otherwise. I was mutilated at birth, and have been unable to come to terms with that. It frequently brings tears to my eyes when I think about it for more than a minute or two. I've tried seeing a counselor to find some sort of psychological healing from something that was done against my will, which I didn't want, and which I now think is a backward, sadistic, and horrible thing to put a child through. And yet I bear the brunt of sexist prejudice: In USA, if a guy gets his covering clipped, it's routine. IF a woman looses her clit, it's mutilation.
I feel that it's slowly driving me to the end of my rope; it's such a small thing; a piece of tissue. But for me, it's causing me a lot of grief because my parents didn't even choose to have me circumcised; the bitch that bore me did. I was adopted, and the paper work was signed before I was even born, yet my biological mother had the audacity to have me mutilated---totally legal--even though after I left the hospital, I was no longer her concern. I'm having deep, dark moods because of this. I loose sleep at night because of it. I guess part of it is my lack of ethnic identity. My family is of german heritage US citizens, but my own origins are highly suspect and ambiguous. Lets just say that I fit the non-gentile stereotype, and I hate that. I've been teased about it more than once, and it galls me.
Anyway, it's for these reasons that I'm just reaching out for words of comfort and support. I've seen there are ways that guys have stretched the skin to create a new covering; basically indistinguishible from the original, but I'm hesitant to try this....for fear of damaging my genitals further. It's kind of embarrasing for me to reach out here, but there are so few social places where I can even talk about this. Again, sorry for crowding the forum.....