This is my first thread since my intro thread, and I just wanted to post a question that I've always pondered, myself.
"Is your fantasy one that is best kept in your imagination and in practice? Or is it something worth pursuing through 24/7 practice, surgery, or other means?"
To explain this a little better, I'll give my version of this:
I have always loved diapees, and I have always loved feeling innocent and cute. I am a 20 year old man, and I love the IDEA of being forced into diapers, forced into pink, girly clothes (matching- low cut and tight- pink sockies, a pink paci, painted pink finger nails and toe nails to match my outfit, and a pink frilly baby dress/onsie that's too small to hide my super thick diapee. Forced to dress like this and do humiliating things is something that really appeals to me (especially being taken advantage of in more ways than one).
Here's the kicker though, I've done stuff like this in the past (either alone, or with a girlfriend that I had- which has unfortunately left my life since), but once I "finished" or once I had started to actually role play, or whatever the situation was, I would always feel disgusted with myself very quickly. I wouldn't be able to live like that, I don't understand why, but for some reason it's such an AMAZING thought to have when it's just that, a thought. Yet when put into action, it's nothing good at all. I've always wished that I was born a girl, that way I wouldn't be conflicted with things such as this, I really am a wittle girly at heart (very caring, loving, and too quick to fall for someone), but I definitely excel as a man (I am a fitness model and trainer in my occupational life). Because of all this, I could never call myself transgendered because I am happy as a man, but the though of being a woman is incredible to me. It's a very "back and forth" ordeal for me, and is exactly why, for me, this is something that is best kept as fantasy. Because hormones, surgery, and other 24/7 permanent procedures and practices are just too scary for me...
Thanks for reading!! I would love some feedback on this, it's something I've always wanted to talk about, and I would really like to hear what you all have to say! Be easy on the newbie!!:]