So, I've been having a lot of personal issues in regards to being AB/DL (yes, yes, I know, it isn't hurting anybody). It really affects my sense of self-worth, self-esteem, and belonging in a negative way. As a result, I've been trying to open up to my shrink about being AB/DL in order to work through this stuff....
But the thing is, I don't know how to open up and it feels almost impossible for me to say that I'm AB/DL out loud. It's hard enough for me to say it in private by myself, and my brain sort of freezes up whenever I try to tell my therapist. She knows that there's something up with me (because I've told her as much), but I can't seem to relax and just tell her. I guess I'm afraid of judgement, being thought less of, and knowing that she knows when we're talking. I've got toxic shame, lol
Any tips? I mean, I know that she's not going to tell anyone, and that the whole point of therapy is to get a safe, judgement free space -- but that doesn't make it any easier. Thanks in advance for your help!