This question is more directed at those of you on here who identify as MtF transsexuals, and my question is this -
How did you know that your gender issues went deeper than clothes? Like, how did you know it was more than crossdressing?
I just can't figure this question out for myself... Like I know that if I had the opportunity to have went through a female puberty instead of a male one, I would have jumped at the chance, and I know that two years ago I was ready to kill myself because I hated being a male, but I just don't feel that way anymore...
Crossdressing has definitely helped to alleviate the self hatred I had going on during senior year of high school, but it has brought with it a mess of confusion that I just can't seem to sort through...
I hate not knowing who I am, its depressing, terrifying, and it just makes me feel numb to everything... I'm debating on whether or not I should ask my therapist about trying hormones... Did hormones help any of you figure it all out?
Anyway, thanks in advance for any insights you guys (or girls I guess >_>) might be able to offer.