I like wearing them, I really do. I don't mind being a AB either. I like using pacifiers and sippy cups but I know there is no way I'd be able to give up diapers for life. Diapers also help me enjoy sex and not mind having it. I don't get bored during it either just as long as we talk about diapers and our other AB/DL fantasies and diapers. We also talk about other things too that are none sexual because it keeps me busy during sex.
But if I were with a vanilla partner, our sex would suck because I wouldn't enjoy it, I'd be miserable, the man would think I suck in bed because we are not doing diapers during it nor talking about them and my fantasies. It be a shame I would need to involve diapers for sex in order for me to enjoy it and be turned on so it be a lot easier for the penis to go inside me. It would cause friction in our relationship and a roadblock and then a break up because the sex sucked all because I needed diapers for it and I couldn't have them because it was a turn off for him. Luckily my husband does not mind me lying there as he lies on top of me doing it and I find all the other sex moves and the methods gross and I don't enjoy being on top and working out during sex. Prude you can say. I only like intercourse and I can live without sex because it's not a huge poirity (sp) for me.
So I got lucky to meet another person who also liked diapers and likes women in them and them acting like babies. This "illness" is not even a problem for me because I am with the right guy. Also I have acceptance from my parents and they don't have a problem with me doing it. I think my mom did but she ignored it over it the years because she knew it was something I needed and I was an adult. So it makes my life a lot easier with diapers and being an AB. I also see it as a difference. Everyone has different needs for sex and mine just happens to be diapers. But unfortunately lot of people wouldn't be willing to do it and it be hard for them to use them for sex so it would make it a "illness" or a "disorder" for us because it makes our lives harder due to intolerance and lack of understanding and also the effect it can cause us if we don't accept it in ourselves and indulge in it. I remember how bad things were in 6th grade when I badly wanted them but couldn't wear any and I so wanted to kill myself and couldn't handle the feelings inside me anymore and couldn't wait to be an adult so I can wear them. I don't want to go back to those feelings if someone decided to take them away from me and told me I can't wear them anymore. Just imagine as a vanilla person if someone took away something you enjoyed like a hobby you have and told you you can never do it ever again? To get extreme, just imagine if someone took your kids away for no reason? I guess you can tell how much diapers mean to me and how important they are to me and how it feels if I couldn't do it ever again.
I did get help with my desire to wear and all I did was buried it at the back of my brain but I still thought about them and went to the websites eventually. I lived in denial until I was 17 thinking I don't want to wear diapers and having no interest because I believed it was sick and twisted and no man would marry me for it. Me liking diapers never went away and I admit I did fine without them but once I started wearing them, I couldn't stop like I thought I would eventually if I met someone or have kids. It became like an addiction. Once you smoke a cigarette, you can't stop. Once you do drugs, you also can't stop so it's the same with diapers. But like I say, I like wearing them and don't intent to quit unless I lose interest like I have before and then the urges to wear would come back.
Anyone else feel the same way?