Okay... I have had...in my nearly 25 years (Or well I'l be 25 in a weekish, Nov 19)...1 girlfriend. I had to "dump" her after only a couple weeks. Why? 2 reasons, 1, she was too controlling, we were neighbors and she wanted me to come over every single mourning as soon as I woke up...among other things, and 2 sex. I have no sex drive, due to my hormonal isses. I have never had sex, nor do I have any desire, nor am I aroused by sexual images. (I am turned off by porn or slutty clothing as well, disgusted mentally and physically by it.) I have SOME feelings for the opposite sex, women, but...it's not "I want to ahve sex with them" type feelings. If I were to have a girlfriend it would be a close emotinoal bond. (The one girls CLAIM to want, with a sensitive and caring partner not driven by sex) The Other reason I had to break up with her is because she was constantly pressuring me with sex. Wanting me to carress down there and all kinds of things like that. I don't mind giving some touch and massage, but it erally was going to a point where I was being pressured into something I have no desire to do. And to be honest, without any desire...or instinct...What would I do? The idea of getting on a woman and trying to figure out what to do other than the obvious (stick - in o...etc.) makes me feel awkward. How would a person with no sex drive have sex anyway, without that instinct? O.O
But the problem is, as I mentioned above. Many girls CLAIM to want a sensitive, caring partner, but none are ever interested in me. I don't look manly and don't have a sex drive, so it seems like women will always cast me aside. It Confuses me and if I am to be honest, hurts me a bit. Here girls tend to talk about guys being slaves to there sex drives, and yet I get cast away for not being sexy or having a sex drive? It seems to my prospective that women are the ones who are driven only by sex from my point of view. How will I ever find a partner in life?
Any advice? I don't mind having sex if I truly loved them... but...Will there likely be a girl I can find willing to accept that I probably will get no sexual arousal from it? That will probably be the worst sex partner ever the first few times at least?