From what I've read on here, I'm probably more of a DL than an AB, since I have no use for all the "role play" of being a baby. In fact, my unfortunate life situation has me looking/sounding much YOUNGER than I wish I did, since being a pre-everything FtM means that my dream is to start testosterone in order to deepen my jr. high treble/soprano voice to the pitch of an adult male with distant memories of puberty. So I don't think I'm an adult baby by choice because that goes against everything we "transboys" desire in life.
Anyway, that being said, I might be a DL because nothing "excites" me more than the thought of having a large, soft BM in a diaper, which I haven't done since I was under 3. Part of what makes this seem so fun is the fact that I was never allowed to get dirty as a "little girl" with a hyper-feminine name (not Roberta or Robin, nor anything beginning with R), so naturally we tend to rebel against what was shoved down our throats. My mom started training me at 15 months, and it didn't go well due to bowel training. So I am now left with emotional scars dating as far back as 33 months.
But right now, I am wearing a diaper I "inherited" when my grandmaw died 2 years ago, and it's a little snug since she died weighing 114 pounds while I'm well over 200. I had only tried it on over my clothes, which doesn't count, but right now I'm wearing it under my panties due to my period. Is this normal, or am I a DL? And what do I do if I get caught by my mom? There are a few more in the pack I snuck in the bathroom closet after we went through her stuff, but never until now have I worn one. I've always had this fantasy of wearing them during my period, since my tampon never catches everything on my heaviest day and I never seem to place the pad right to collect the overflow, but I've always been too afraid of my parents' judgement to try it out. What should I do if I like how this plan works tonight?