I personally identify myself as gay (not out though). My friendship group is quite mixed, many of which would probably accept me, if I came out. Others however would not.
I don't particularly buy into the "those who don't mind matter, and those who mind don't matter" notion, as it would personally kill me inside to lose any of these friends, as they've helped me through so much in my life. However due to the homophobic tendencies of individuals within my group of friends, I felt pressured to get a girlfriend, most likely to alleviate any suspicion amongst them that I might be gay. So I met a girl last year at University and we are currently in a relationship
Don't get me wrong I didn't pick a girl to go into a relationship for the sake of it, we got to know each other and there is most definitely a physical connection between us, but that's the problem for me. I physically do love her, but obviously not sexually. Which makes maintaining this relationship so much harder.
As a result I often feel really guilty as no matter how much I physically love her as a person, which I do. It's impossible for me to be sexually attracted to her. Making me feel like a horrible person as I feel like I'm in this relationship to alleviate my own social pressures therefore being involved for all the wrong reasons.