Nine days ago I finally came out to my therapist as DL. He told me that now that it is no longer a secret things would change greatly for me, but I didn't believe him at all. As it turns out they really have changed. Not only have I gotten on this site, my diaper buying experience has changed as well. It used to be the most difficult thing for me to do. I would have panic attacks, take an hour just to get to the diaper isle, and then walk down it only to chicken out. It was a miracle that I ever managed to get out of the store with diapers.
Then I came out. That very day I went and bought myself some Disney Pull-Ups. I wanted girly designs and finally felt brave enough to buy them. It was incredibly hard, I still spent over an hour in the store trying to muster up the courage. But I managed to get what I went in for.
Then I joined this site. It seems to have given me even more just to be talking to other people, to feel normal, etc.
I decided I really wanted to try Goodnites. They are bigger, have super girly designs, and I just simply wanted to. So instead of doing what I'd normally do and wait until I ran out of the others, I just went to the store. As always, I was anxious, but not nearly as anxious as I had been last week. In fact, I walked in proudly, despite the anxiety (because being DL is awesome!) and did nothing but walk right to the isle, grab, the diapers, and check out. I didn't even bother getting a basket to put them in to hide them. I was in and out of the store in five minutes. It was such a radically different experience than I'd had before. I had moments of panic - what would people think? - but then I reminded myself that it's okay to be DL! I *like* being DL, so why would I feel ashamed if people think I'm weird? It was a whole new level of comfort with myself that I hadn't experienced before.
So now I have the diapers. LOVE the adorable girly designs. Wish they were more absorbent, but oh well... it's not like I get a chance to stay in them for long at this point.
As a side note, has anyone used any kind of booster pad with Goodnites? Did it work well?