First I want to say how grateful I am for this site. I've been lurking for the last 6 months, ever since I was able to acknowledge my need for diapers. From simply not feeling alone in this to figuring out how to buy my first pack of diapers, this site has made my life immensely better.
A little about me and diapers:
While I have always had an interest in diapers since I was a child, I was never able to acknowledge it until this year. I had a traumatic therapy experience when I was 12 years old that caused me to repress most of my DL feelings and be in complete denial of those feelings which I didn't manage to repress. It wasn't until 16 years later that I was able to acknowledge who I really am. To complicate matters, I am married. My husband does not know about the diapers and I constantly have to hide from him because I know he would not be accepting. His last girlfriend before me came out to him as AB and he broke up with her immediately. While he thought most of what she was into was cute, he had a problem with one thing- diapers. To this day he likes to insult her and make fun of her because of the diapers and I have to endure this without giving myself away. This has taken a tremendous toll on my relationship and I am fairly certain this marriage will not survive. I am currently in therapy with a totally amazing sex therapist who I finally came out to last week. He has been a relationship counselor for the two of us in the past and I hope that he can help, even if the help is with ending our relationship.
A little about me outside of diapers:
I am a passionate cyclist. I don't race my bike because I don't have health insurance and injuries are extremely common in races, but I would love to. I ride with many friends who race and enjoy the sport immensely. Where I live we have flat farmlands that are beautiful and less than an hour drive away we have beautiful hills to climb. I love being out doors, exercising, and the group dynamics of riding bikes.
I also play the cello, which I took up at the age of 26. I had been out of college a couple years and my brain was feeling sluggish, so I decided I wanted to play a (hard) instrument. It, like cycling, has been one of the hardest and most rewarding things I have ever done. I am currently working on the Prelude of Bach's first unaccompanied cello suite.