As for this question, I'm going to have a little trouble answering for 2 reasons. First is because I have a hard time pinpointing my initial contact/thoughts about my affinity with diapers. Secondly is because this is the first time I have ever really opened up about this side of my life. It's something I've kept private for a long time. But maybe talking about it will help me get a better insight into myself, so I'll give it a try.
When I say I've been a DL for 2~3 years, I'm really referring to when I started acquiring actual diapers from my local pharmacy at college. My affinity for them started when I was around 16 to almost 18 years old.
I'm not quite sure when it started, but as to why I would have to say padding. The feeling of extra, soft material down below made me feel more calm, happy and secure. Mostly rolled up towels in the shape of a diaper. My first real step towards diapers though was around the 18 year mark. I bought 2 large cotton sheets and a bag of cotton fluff stuffing. I had had a little experience with sewing by hand so I cut a pattern out of the two clothes added the cotton fluff, and started to sew. Took me about 2 weeks to complete it, working on it on and off. At the end I had a homemade diaper that would fit snugly under my jeans. When no one else was at home, I went to my basement and put them on under my jeans. It was so comfortable, i couldn't remember a time I have felt so calm. I'm not sure as to why, but after a few minutes of wearing it I released my bladder. During those moments it felt that every worry that I had just washed away. Needless to say the homemade concoction leaked all over. I felt so guilty and full of shame. I burned all of the materials and the homemade diaper in the burning barrel, and didn't have any interaction with diapers until 2~3 years ago.
That is when I started buying actual diapers store. I would use 1 or 2 of them out of a pack of 16 or more, enjoy the comfortable secure feeling with the lack of any worries, and then proceed directly to getting rid of the rest of the pack of diapers and feel guilty. This cycle would repeat every 4~6 months. It is only recently I have been trying to accept this side of my life a bit more. Which is why I started checking online for websites about this. Then I stumbled upon this website and have been reading posts for the past week or two. Decided to join since I thought the forum and the community could help me understand myself better. And now I believe it has started me down that road.
Thank you Trevor for that question. It actually help me understand myself a bit more now. I'm going to eat a bit now since this was a little draining emotionally, but not in a bad way.
See you all around later,
P.S. If it seems a little bit too much descriptively, just let me know and I'll edit it. I wasn't paying attention to all the details I was giving. I was more focused on what I was saying.