Alright. Here's a bit of background info before I go in depth about my questions. I've been going out with the same girl for the last five years. For the most part, we've been really happy together and we are more than lovers, but soul mates. I have been struggling with bouts of incontinence since I was younger and my girlfriend is aware and supportive of all that. Earlier this summer, I moved out for a couple months for work and while she visited, I starting slowly coming out about my AB side. One of the things I did was buying a blankie, a teddy bear and some coloring books. I sort of told her that I had a more "little" side of me that I wanted to explore and barely talked about it after.
We had a conversation on Skype where I thought that I came clean about all of this but I guess that I wasn't precise enough. I'm now back home and spent some afternoons watching cartoons and sleeping with my teddy bear at night. I guess that I'm ready to open this side of me with her now. I could tell that it was upsetting her and later yesterday, I tried my best to talk about all of this.
So I came out, but this time in person. I was still all nervous about it, but this time I had a real reaction. She was really shocked about it, which makes sense. I then asked her that I was here to answer her questions. After thinking for about 10 seconds, she said "well, what's the kind of stuff that you need to do?" to which I answered that it wasn't a "one size fits all type of thing" but that there were many aspects of it that applied to me (Wearing diapers, watching cartoons, drawing, etc.). She was trying her best to understand and process all of that but later on cried. To her, this strains our relationship and when she comes home from work, she needs her "man", to which I answered that I totally understood all of this.
So, I promised her that I would be available for her only tonight, but that I would need some AB time this weekend. She didn't really answer anything else after that, we talked about other things and we were fine this morning. I thanked her for listening to me and for being around. I also made sure that she knew that I'd be there for her tonight.
My question is where do we go from now? This was overwhelming to her and it's only the tip of the iceberg. I just personally came to terms with being an ABDL and I can't "quit" my feelings now. Are there any readings that you'd recommend for the partner of an ABDL? I'd love to hear some of your suggestions.