Well, I think I might be sexually addicted to this whole stuff. I don't know for sure but it creeps me out.
Here is the deal- where I'm busy it almost never even crosses my mind, But when I have some free time, and recently I have too much of it, It's the only thing I can think of. I've tried my best to occupy myself at home. I bought a jigsaw puzzle, I bought books, I've tried to cook and clean the house, watch some TV, find new TV programs, but it had only partial success. Yes, I had things to do, but I was always thinking when I'll be free to pleasure myself.
So I decided to get a job; although it was only 3 hours job it helped me but when I was back at home... Now the job is over and it's the same as before.
I know, I should get a job. I ned it anyway, but what about the time when I'll be at home, not working. I really don't know how to take it, and it's really bothers me. finally I feel OK with who I'm and now this thing?
Well, I don't really know what I want to gain from posting it, I guess I want to know what you think I can do with it, if anyone ever has/had this problem and how he/she handles/handled it. And maybe I'm looking for empathy as well .
It's just that I really want to be a regular guy, and don't really feel like one right now.
I'm sorry for my broken english, it's not my native language.