There have been quite a few threads where people have sought advice about how to tell their therapist/counsellor that they are an AB and/or wear diapers. And a lot of random posts where people have said that they told their therapist, but not gone into details.
So I was wondering, for those who have told their therapist already, how exactly they brought up the subject. I thought it might be interesting (particularly for anyone wanting to tell, but not sure how to) to have a thread without any advice or suggestions, just "this is what I did".
So... I'll start!
At first, I mentioned that I don't feel like a "real" adult; I feel like there's a little kid inside me... (And my shrink said, "Oh, I think everyone has an inner child" which made me feel better... but I didn't feel like he really understood the scale of the situation!)
And then (a few months later), I felt like keeping quiet was causing me to censor myself and hinder a completely open and honest debate, but I couldn't work out how to explain any further. I'd tried and the words just wouldn't come out. There was absolutely no way I could say that I wear nappies. I'm so afraid of what people might think. And for me, especially nowadays, it's about so much more than padding... it's the emotional side that I wanted to show. I thought that saying, "I wear nappies" would be too blunt; too graphic and too... incomplete and incomprehensible.
He always said I should write things down if I can't say them. But when I tried, I'd read back what I'd written later and I couldn't identify with it; it felt like an emotionless alien had written it about someone else! And anyway, the idea of writing something so personal and potentially humiliating down on paper felt like I was providing documentary evidence in support of my defamation.
So... I found a picture of a super-cute set of children's duvet covers (which I shall be buying shortly), and a few photos of models on Privatina, wearing some very childish all-in one pyjamas and sucking a dummy, and I just printed them out and showed them to him.
We haven't discussed it too much further yet, but I think he sort of "gets" it now... or at least how much of an integral part of me it is... But I'm not sure if he has guessed that I wear nappies... And I've no idea how to tell him that or how to talk about the subject further... And the "difficulties" that causes. But I feel like he's 90% of the way there, so telling him that tiny little detail doesn't seem like such an impossible task as it was before I had mentioned anything at all.
So... What's your story?