I told my therapist about ADISC (didnít specifically mention the site, just said a website pertinent to a fetish of mine) because I was having bizarre catastrophic anxiety about being arrested for going on AB/DL sites. While Iíve largely moved past this piece of anxiety, my therapist wants me to completely abstain from AB/DL (ďfetishĒ) websites; the computer I currently use was purchased by my parents, and he thinks itís unfair to look at things pertaining to my fetish on something that could ostensibly be traced back to them. So, in short, he wants me to purchase my own laptop for things of this nature so that none of this will be associated with my parents.
Honestly, I was doing fine just keeping away from AB/DL material for about a month, but I canít deny that itís part of my life and that I wish to embrace it in some fashion. I donít have a lot of money, and while it may be feasible to purchase a cheap laptop for purpose, I kind of want some input from other ABDLs on this matter before I make such a large purchase. Since this matter is relevant to a fetish that I keep hidden from everyone in my life, I canít really talk about it anywhere else. Obviously, Iím breaking his ďruleĒ by being here, but I donít feel that catastrophic anxiety anymore which was the issue to begin with.