Hi every one. I new here (obviously)
My name is Shelly and I apologize in advance for my
dyslexia... but I will try my best.
A vary close friend to me showed me a post by onecho
and after it made me cry (I was touched) I just had to post.
Not sure what to say so if I say to much I'm sorry.
I have had a terrible and wild life so far and I'm a
little ruff for where. Because of this I have accumulated
a lot of hard won wisdom wile I have gotten wiser I still
refuse to surrender my inner child. When I am at my best
there is not much of a dif between my "inner" child and
I like to run in the warm rain. I still catch lighting
bugs outside. I prefer flip-flops to heals, plush toys
to jewelry, a root beer float to beer, playing
at the playground to getting drunk at the night club.
Still I can be responsible and mature when I must.
I can also be self reliant to a fault.
I am also polymath with a hi IQ but most
of my education comes from my interest
in everything under the sun.
I consider my self to be a regressive AB.
Only last year I decided to stop trying to
hide being little from... well the whole world.
Shame gets lonely you know.
SKILLS AND KNOWLEDGE - Electronics, Soldering, Drawing,
Interior Decorating, Riding Motorcycles, Fire Poi, Photography,
Firearms, Video Gamer, Inline Skating, Massage, Tantra, Nutrition, Fitness...
And A Wicked Knowledge Of Many Subjects
(from history, physics, psychology, biology,
physiology and more)
MY GOOD SIDE - Highly Intelligent, Photography Memory,
Good At Public Speaking, Verbally Quick, Polymath, I'm A Survivor,
Artistic, Hyper-focusing, And I Seem To Age Extremely
MY NOT SO GOOD SIDE - Dyslexic and Dyscalculia, ADHD,
Child Hood PTSD (Hay I AM survivor). Lately I've been having problems
living my "MOTIVES IN LIFE". Lately I have been feeling
vary vary non sexual. -self actualization is hard-
THINGS I LIKE TO DO FOR FUN - Cuddling,
Hearing TED talks, Net Surfing, Inline Skating,
Riding My Motorcycle, Bike Riding, Jogging, Roasting Smores,
Long Walks On Warm Nights With Stimulating Conversation,
Seeing a Harvest Moon, Having Hot Tea With Honey Before Bed,
Having a Picnic Or Barbecue At The Beach Or The Forest, Going For
A Walking On a Fogy Day, Horse Back Riding, Taking Acting Lessons, Hearing A Classical Consort In A Old Church. Catching Lighting Bugs, Running Outside In The Warm Rain During a Warm Summer Storm,
Working In A Garden, Inviting Friends Over For Dinner, Seeing
Movie or Musical or Play, Watching Silly Videos On YouTube,
Spending a Day At A Water Park, Playing In A Bubble Bath,
Water Balloon Fights, Snowball Fights, Experiencing Sublime
Moments, Tree Climbing, Hearing Music On Good Headphones,
Going To See a Kids Movie Or a Deep Movie, Video Games, Being Tickled,I LOVE to Show And Tell Anything I Find Interesting,
Playing Tag, Piggy Back Rides, And Once a Year Doing Something
That's Amazing and Scary.
THINGS I DON'T LIKE TO DO
Smoking, Drinking Alcohol or Coffee (yucky tasting).
Going to events where I have to where uncomfortable
clothing and shoes. Being treated like meat.
AMAZING THINGS THAT I HAVE DONE - Been In Love.
Sky Diving, Micro Light Flying, Free Hand Mountain Climbing,
Joined The Marines (and survived), Ran a 1/2 Marathon, Burned
Out the Motor On a Tread Mill (twice), Been to Camden Town
in The UK, Been To Burning Man, Seen the Red Woods.
Sat On A Crocodile, Scratched a Tiger Behind The Ear
Survived Years Of Child Abuse
MOTIVES IN LIFE (still changing)
Achieve self actualization.
To identify my defenses and having the courage to give them up.
To live a life of authenticity.
To seek novel, epic and sublime experiences.
To have the courage to "tell" my truth every day,
the imperfect and perfect parts.
Experiencing life like a child, with full absorption and concentration.
To see the wonder in little things.
To have a big dream to chase after.
Believe anything is plausible.
To be a life long learner.
To never to never to automatically reject new
meanings and information even if it contradicts
old meanings and information.
Lean into what I feel and don't numb
myself to any of my emotions. Even the discomforting ones.
To not act out of fear.
To always choose growth over security when ever I can.
To always choose people and experiences over possessions.
To be resistant to enculturation, but not be purposely unconventional.
To listening to my own objective thinking over that of
the voice of tradition, authority or the majority.
Always be 100% honest with myself.
To to love deeply and be loved in return deeply.
To play purely for the joy of it.
To laugh as much as possible.
To not to be pessimistic.
To express myself with passion when ever possible.
WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR IN GENERAL
I would love to make some friends
with some like minded interests.