Well I'll start from the begining. I've had a girlfriend for the last 2 years up to the begining of June. We split up because of too many problems stopping us seeing each other. I would often ask if she wanted to meet up with me, and over the course of the 2 years it went from seeing me every weekend to every 2 months, even though she'd tell me she's bored. On top of that we had to keep our relationship secret because her parents disagreed. Every day since then I've thought of her, but she has found another guy and wants to be only friends with me. I told her that if I couldn't be with her I couldn't be friends cause it would kill me inside.
A week after we split I started my new Job full-time. While at work I hardly think of her unless her parents come in. It's a small shop so I would see them, and we'd say hi like we were friends. Outside or work, I seem to almost constantly be thinking of her or of having a girlfriend. I only have a couple of friends so don't get out much at all, if ever. I talk to my closest friend a fair amount, and write software for his business. He also recently broke up from his girlfriend, but he's good looking unlike me and he is already talking with a girl he really like and who really likes him back. That doesn't help me feel any better really. I'm mostly interested in Aviation and Technology (my baby baby side only comes out maybe twice a month and that's if I get time home alone as I live with my mum and younger sister).
My little sister is a right nightmare to live with, and we are always arguing. She's 15 and smokes, drinks and has friends round when she's not allowed. She does nothing in the house but make a mess, including eating all the crap food like crisps and cola. One time recently she was in with friends when she wasn't supposed to, and I got back from work to a brun mark on the carpet. My mum went mental when she got home.
I'm 18 and wondering what you folks thoughts are after reading this? I'm not suicidal or anything, just feel down alot, I'm very happy and upbeat at work, then just feel down and crap after
Just needed somewhere to spill out, and ended up here.
Thank you for taking time to read