Hi, I am a "normal" 54 yr. old heterosexual male finding myself in a bit of an unexpected situation and would welcome any feedback your forum members have to offer.
Diagnosed with early stages of prostate cancer I recently had successful prostate removal surgery. *In preparation of the anticipated incontinence I started to become familiar with adult diapers, which apparently "triggered something inside me" previously unknown to me, as I found them arousing to wear. *Fortunately I am one of the lucky few who is only experiencing the occasional stress-related leakage but then this is where strange gets even more weird for me.
Those familiar with this prostate surgery procedure know that once the prostate is removed you can have dry orgasms (which i can have) as you cannot ejaculate anymore. However, it seems somewhere in my mind I have begun replacing ejaculating with urinating as I find it very sensually/sexually gratifying to fantasize about my girlfriend and having it lead to my wearing a diaper and wetting myself. *There is no erection or orgasm...just a very gratifying experience. *I discussed this with my girlfriend who complimented my brave honesty and she feels it maybe something I am *doing while in the transition stages of not being able to ejaculate and awaiting the gradual return of healthy erections which is part of the recovery process. *Although it doesn't turn her on she says if this is something that helps me get my sexuality issues back on track she understands it and has no issues. *She says it could be that I am finding a sexual release in a way that my body is able to function right now. As far as the diaper, she feels I probably find it arousing in the way that it feels around my man parts. *I am not interested in the "being babied thing" and I am not of a needy personality that likes others to take care of me. *I am usually the caregiver and the"rock", so to speak. **So this is my dilemma...anyone ever hear of these behaviors? The sudden liking for wearing *a diaper and then the wetting/sensual thing? *Will appreciate any feedback. *Thank you