1) Hello! Who are you?
Hi there I'm PowderKid, and I am a proud Canadian diaper girl. (I hope that's okay to say, the intro guide says don't say where you live, but Canada's pretty big and my nationality is part of who I am, so I figured it would be alright).
I'm a trans woman, transitioned a few years back. I don't really like to talk about whether I've had surgeries or not, so if it's alright with you I'd prefer not to be asked that question... If I get to know anyone here closely as an online friend, I will decide whether and when to talk about it. Hope that's okay with everyone
I've known I was a diaperer (hehe neologism) since I was really young, but of course access and acceptance was a problem until I lived on my own. Same old story, right?
2) What brings you here? (interest in diapers/regression)
Let's see... I like to wear diapers, and use them . To be honest I don't really see the point of just wearing them and not using them... hehehe.
I enjoy it most when I'm pretending that I am being forced to wear diapers as a punishment... One of my greatest fantasies is to experience that in reality some day.
Sitting in a diaper for a while after I've had to use it gives me an amazing psychological satisfaction. That feeling you get when you know you've been naughty, but are in the midst of punishment gradually absolving yourself from guilt in the eyes of... whoever.
I don't know how I got this way, I'm not religious and my parents never used diaper discipline or anything like that (like you see in those stories sometimes). Honestly, I may just have been born this way. But it's something I've always wanted for as far back as I can remember. At least since I was 8 years old, possibly even younger. Since before I knew I liked boys, even, and since WAY before I figured out I needed to transition.
I'm not really majorly into age-play, but when i'm put into diapers I seem to get into a sort of pre-adolescent mindset. I talk, walk (well, waddle if i'm diapered right) and I'm usually content to be a girl, but every once in a blue moon I feel like a little boy again. Gender fluidity is fun. Also, sometimes I just don't think about gender at all when I'm in play/kid mode and I just enjoy the relaxing non-worrying emotional buzz. I'm definitely driven to be submissive in diapers, but being the big sister/babysitter isn't completely alien to me. I've been there once or twice (oh ever so long ago) and that's fun too.
My fixation on this as a fetish sort of ebbs and flows... It comes in waves, and dissipates. It used to be much sharper. Before I started taking hormones (to be a girl), it used to be much sharper and random... Like, I might get really horny (as boys do) and want to wear a diaper for a short while ... and be done with it. But since I changed to a female balance, it's much more gentle, sloping, emotionally rewarding experience to explore this. It's still sexy to be sure, but it's like... more psychological satisfaction, and a long term interest (something I want to spend a few hours or a couple days doing, as opposed to .. like.. half an hour, if you get my drift).
So anyway, not fullfiling these desires properly is becoming a weight on me, since I grow more emotionally invested in the experiences as they have become more psychologically wonderful and intense since I transitioned. I'm in a major diaper phase right now, actually (the strongest one in quite a long while) and to be honest that's the reason I went looking for support again and finally ended up registering here tonight. I hope it's okay to say this, but I'm in a... well worn diaper right now.
There is a local guy I used to see but... he got sleazy and dangerous and honestly I just didn't want any part of that anymore. But that left me with no other outlet. So, here I am. Not to hook up at all, but just to talk with other real human beings about this. Sorry to have rambled. Thank you for listening
3) Diapers do not rule our lives! What are your other interests? (besides diapers/regression)
Well, I'm sorry I can't talk about my work life. I just have to be discreet about that and I hope you can understand. For the same reason, I can't put up pics of myself (I don't know if this is one of those types of forums where people bug you for pics... I hope not because I don't like that).
My home life, let's see... I have a fantastic boyfriend, who I love very much. He doesn't live with me though, I live on my own. We've been together for 3 and a half months (I know, short) but the feelings are strong, there is honesty and commitment, and we treat eachother with love and respect. Plus he just might be one of the smartest guys in the universe, which is great because it makes for really stimulating conversation.. Plus he's really sexy (but he's not interested in you-know-what... bummer). He's an all around awesome trustworthy guy and I'm lucky to have him in my life.
I LOVE reading books. I always have a stack ready so when I finish one I can just grab another one. I might read 4 or 5 books in a week, and then go three weeks on only two books. Sometimes it depends how busy I am, but honestly it also just comes down to how lazy I am at any given time. But when I shift into the reading gear, man do I read fast
What else... I love old video games. Nintento, Sega Genesis, that kind of thing. I also play new games, but not as much.
Oh! Also, HUGE Sci-Fi fan. Love it. A geeky girl is me.
4) What are you looking for out of this site? What would you love to do here?
Honestly, I just wanted to find a place where like-minded people gather, and where I can talk without shame about all of these things that (apparently) fire my soul. I've browsed around so I know that some degree of naughtiness goes on here (stories what what? hehe) but that's not my primary interest.
My primary interest here is in just having a nice diaper-positive forum to come and share my personality with, and this is the first one I've come across that seemed really welcoming, didn't have a horrible web design and crappy usability, wasn't filled with creepers, etc.
I'm definitely not shy! Please talk to me