For years, Iíve wanted to be treated like an actual infant, as itís been a fantasy of mine for quite some time. Iíve had real time with people in the past and right now, I currently have a very good friend I love and trust, treat me as her own newborn son. Nothing crazy, no ďOh My God, he has a mommyĒ, type stuff. Sheís just a friend I took a chance and trusted her with my secret and I found she was open-minded enough to eventually come to love it. Back to my point, I was raised to be a pretty serious person, self-respecting and ďthereís a time and a place for everythingĒ manor. While Iím not saying, no one else who is an AB wasnít raised the way I was; I am having trouble letting myself go. If I try to do things like make sounds while playing with toys, or aimlessly waving my arms and legs when playing newborn, or baby talking when I pretend to be a little older, itís almost like I get hung up. Even if I force myself to pretend cry or act like Iíve had way too much sugar to eat, I come out of it feeling extremely silly and I beat myself up for it as long as Iím thinking about it. Personally, I think I make for a pretty sorry baby myself, but I just donít know how to give in. Has anyone else ever been here before? I would love to hear about other experiences and what you may have tried to do, to help yourself along.