Such a simple word & an item that doesn't bring much attention at all!! But to a lot of us here, it can mean so much & yet, can be so troublesome at times!!
There is the comfort factor of them; whether it be for stress relief, to be able to relive your baby/toddlerhood again or just for fun!! They allow you to just let go & be little & carefree again, going in them where you are & not think twice about it!! Being able to going in a diaper, whether in one or both ways, can be soothing & relaxing, even if the clean up afterwards is less than that!!
Hearing the sound of them crinkling as you walk around, can be a nice & relaxing sound!! However, to a non-AB/DL, walking around sounding like you have a plastic bag stuck in your back pocket, could be very annoying!! But, the more they crinkle or rustle, the better the diaper is!!
The smell of them, can have memories reawakened & also can be relaxing as well!! Some have their favorites, is terms of smell, whether it be Pampers, Huggies, Luvs or a favorite store brand!! The opening of a new pack & the odor of them wafting out into the air around you, does it not sometimes bring a smile to your face?
Then there is the selection & type of them; cloth or disposable, white, colored or printed, plastic or cloth backed, pull-on or tape style & the AIO, a cloth diaper with a built-in plastic cover!! Which can be good, having so much to pick from, but can also be overwhelming as well, as you try to pick out which fits you the best & what you think you'll like the most!! Also, the level of thickness, do you like thin & discrete or thick, the thicker the better for you?
Now onto the troublesome part of this,
Getting & hiding them can bring much stress to some, even more so with our teen members who still live at home & don't have access to a credit/debit card to buy online!! Going to a store, whether by bike, on foot or if you have a drivers license can be a headache, as the fear factor of dealing with lines in the store or what a clerk will think can paralyze one into thinking there is no hope on getting them at all!! If you weren't a nervous wreck before going to get them, you might be an even bigger one after getting them, whether you did buy them or if you couldn't do so!!
Hiding them can bring it's own challenges, parents or siblings going into your room & finding them, along with friends who aren't into it like you are!! It can be hard enough to hide new ones, but a used one can make you worry about the odor giving you away & even if you get it into the trash can without being seen doing it, will it be found in there before it is picked up & emptied by your local trash service!!
The emotional aspect can also be troublesome, liking such a thing, no matter the reason why you do!! You can like them, but hate yourself for liking them too, as it can make you happy & also be depressing at the same time!! The binge & purge cycles, getting rid of everything & then once done, having to start all over again getting them back!!
So, I ask you, what does the word "Diaper" & the item itself mean to you?