I dont know if this is the right place to put this post but if anything someone can just move it.
Ive noticed that I have a hard time showing love to my family, like my mom, dad, brother (well i dont particularly like my brother so that doesnt really count), my cousins,.. pretty much my entire family except for maybe my cousins who live in south america that I barely get to see. Not that i'm beat up about this or anything, I mean dont get me wrong it does kinda suck to realize I cant treat with love those who treat me with love, though I do respect them all.
I can never seem to be loving towards a family member even though I do love them very much. Its hard for me to say kind words like I love you or I miss you, and I always have this hard shell of an exterior towards my family, even those who have personally told me that they look up to me. I use to be very loving and caring but since I got into College (about 5 years ago) its been like i cant show them any love though I do love them and they know (at least I hope they know).
However I have no problem being all lovey with my very close friends and my wife (my wife for obvious reasons), I can be very heartfelt and warm with my close friends regardless of gender..
So i guess the real question is, is this common behavior? Has/Is anyone else going/gone through this? Im interested in hearing everyone's opinions on this
(p.s. dont suggest a psychologist because I dont need one, im perfectly happy, im just curious as to the reasoning behind my inability to show love towards my blood relatives.)