I dont expect anyone to respond to this, feel free to respond if you want, I just feel like ranting in a non harmful way because what Im about to say saddens me.
I like to consider myself a pretty decent person... My friends tell me that I am the most unselfish person in the world or one of the most unselfish people they've ever met. Im told im a nice guy and that I treat everyone the way I would wanna be treated... even though I think I'm an asshole, everyone in my life seems to believe otherwise.
Why do I say this? Because even though I dont believe it myself, other people do so it must be at least true in some way. The question I ask myself is if IM like this, then why is the majority of the world full of such DERANGED individuals... Sure people use their traumatizing child hoods as an excuse for being assholes, but you think MY childhood was covered in roses and sprayed with cotton candy cologne?? NO
I was severely bullied from kindergarten up until my junior year in high school, I went to multiple therapists, took VARIOUS anti-depressants, got diagnosed with things I NEVER had, attempted suicide COUNTLESS amounts of times and grew a very STRONG passionate hatred for people... I STILL hate people yet I treat them with respect and kindness because if there is by chance someone else in the world who hates people as much as I do, i would want them to give me a chance too. Despite all that, you dont see ME being a person filled with dick attitude and a holier-than-now personality!
Another thing that bothers me is that KIDS these days (and i know it sounds naive because im only 22) but younger kids these days are SO INTOLERANT, even people on HERE (not gonna mention names) get angry over things they dont understand which BAFFLES me because this is a community full of people who should NOT have a word in being angry over things they dont understand when it comes to people... I dont remember being like that as a child... I dont remember EVER being like that, i mean sure maybe ive gotten frustrated at things i didnt understand but only AFTER attempted to understand them and failed, but the frustration only came from losing patience in myself NOT the thing I didnt understand... if I was capable of this in my middle school year then why are other young kids capable of this too????
Im sorry if this is a waste of a post, but the internet is infinite. I just felt the need to blow off some steam and facebook or twitter just dont give you enough space to write all this.
Sorry if I offended anyone, I dont see how I possibly could.