Just wondering if theres anyone else who is regularly in a more or less 'split' state of mind on things? On the one hand, theres my ambitious side, which is constantly wanting more, forcing me to work far harder than i logically should, and is generally douchey and anti anything but work, cash and success at any cost.
Yet at once my far more playful and easy going dl subby side is eternally wanting to give up all control over basically everything to simply be taken care or, owned or whatever. My issue is that i cant seem to keep a hold on both at once or do either in moderation, so either i'm a joking easy going clown, or else i'm a workaholic greedy douche. To add to the complexity of it all, both sides are always interfering with one another since one is all about total independence and dominance over damn near everything in my life, while the other is all about zero control or real independence.
Anyone ever experience the same sort of thing? Or more useful to me, can anyone suggest a way of dealing with it better than just embracing one or the other from time to time?