I think all of us have a time period in our lives when we weren't *B or DL or simply repressed that side of yourself.
If you've come to terms with it and/or acted upon it (ie. participating in RP, buying Diapers/Nappies, getting stuff to make you feel more little, regression) do you feel like it has had a directly or indirectly positive effect (your relationships, self-esteem, confidence, feelings of security) or does it cause a lot of negative effects( barrier from you feeling normal, being a secret, compromising your relationships) in your life?
I've only recently (past 6 months) decided to make my AB/DL side part of my life, and have had a very long period of time in my life where I actively repressed my DL and TB sides. They were always somewhere in the background, but I never acted upon it, and left fantasizing about it for the 15-20 minutes it would take me to fall asleep every night.
It was sort of like a measuring stick for how secure and happy I felt in my life. If I was going through a particularly stressful or lonely time in my life, I would find it would be harder to repress and I would zone out even during normal activities during the day to think about and fantasize about regression or being able to wear diapers.
On the other hand, I would find that I would lose interest in any aspect of it when I felt fulfilled and happy with my life and felt a strong sense of security in my relationships. Thus it's not unusual that I considered it only a coping mechanism and felt relief when I didn't need it.
What I've noticed though is that in parallel with coming to terms and actively accepting this side of myself, eventually indulging in some parts of it, I've also had a great increase in confidence and general security, as well as a decrease in how often I experience symptoms of anxiety. I don't indulge too much these days but it no longer is a nail in my foot, so to speak but rather just an important part of myself.
With this I have this incredible desire to help other people accept and embrace their own differences and quirks, not only limited to *B/DL type stuff, and generally have become significantly more tolerant and open in every aspect of my life. Perhaps this is something that simply came to me with age, but I definitely love myself more with my AB DL side than I did without.
Have any of you experienced anything similar or perhaps the complete opposite? I understand that for some, this might not serve as a coping mechanism.